Cleaning

I had a bad day at work yesterday.  Work in general right now is just stressful and I think that working 72 hour work weeks last fall for awhile really burned me out and I haven't completely recovered yet.  (Trying to write test procedures for 12 hours a day, 6 days a week gets very tedious and mind numbing.)

So I admit I'm a little bit more prone right now to get stressed easily.  I feel like I could use a full month off to just sit around and do nothing! :)  I'm behind on things right now.  I need to get into the dentist, I am well overdue for a haircut, we are out of a lot of groceries... etc.

Anyway, yesterday when I got home at work I started cleaning. I've found that cleaning tends to be something I do when I'm stressed, frustrated, mad, or just feeling emotional.  I always thought it was more of a stress relief to be doing something like scrubbing the shower/tub and getting the frustrations out that way.  But now I'm starting to think it's more about control.

Some of my frustrations at work are related to lack of organization, schedule, etc.  And I can't do anything about any of that.  But when I go home and see our house looking kinda blah it's a really nice feeling to get stuff done and have it looking clean.  I don't know if this makes sense.  But it's something that I can take action about.

There are other ways I could relieve stress or pound out frustration.  Running works really well right now.  So does playing music.  But yesterday I just had an urge to start cleaning.  And I was pretty happy afterwards because I could see a difference.