4 weeks

I'm starting these posts just to document my thoughts and feelings. I really like being able to look back at things later. You forget so much.

At 4 weeks and 1 day I got a positive pregnancy test. Dave and I have not been preventing so we knew it was a possibility but honestly I didn't think I was going to be pregnant yet. About a week prior to the positive test, I couldn't sleep all night because I was nauseous. Nauseous to the point that I was hugging the toilet but never actually threw up. The thought crossed my mind that I might be pregnant. So I took a pregnancy test and of course it came out negative. This morning (4 weeks 1 day) I took a test on a whim, not even expecting anything and before even 2 minutes had passed I glanced at it and there were TWO LINES. I did a double take. I was so shocked. And then the excitement/bouncing up and down started. I don't know if I was safe to drive to work- there were a few points that I wondered if the light I had gone through had actually been green.

I did tell Dave right away and he smiled but I think I was too excited for him to be able to say much.

So just general thoughts. This still feels very surreal. It's not really a surprise but at the same time it is. If that makes any sense. And of course I'm immediately thinking about miscarriages. I have been upping my running to run the Hershey Half in October (not likely now that this will happen) so I've been pushing on the running front. I would like to continue running but this means I need to keep my current level of fitness instead of trying to up what I can do. I'm just glad I did start getting back into shape. I was just starting to really lose some weight again and my stomach was FINALLY looking flat again. Well, not flat. But I could see a difference.

You would think this is negative but I don't think so. I'd really like to keep exercising during this pregnancy. I think that exercise is an outlet, and also a way to make the pregnancy and labor more manageable. And especially with the fact that I'm 35 (UGH, can't believe I just admitted that publicly) this is even more important. I will be labeled AMA for Advanced Maternal Age. Doesn't that sound terrible?!

Oh and one more note. I got the positive pregnancy test the same date that Dave proposed to me. Proposal: 7/16/07. Pregnancy test: 7/16/14. 7 years later. I didn't realize that until later when I was looking at the date for the midwife center.

How many weeks: 4 (7/15/14) - The date in parentheses is the day that I turned this number of weeks. I'm posting this since these will have been written months/weeks prior to actually posting on my blog. Also, I turned 4 weeks before I realized I was pregnant so this was written after 4 weeks but with my initial thoughts on finding out I was pregnant.

Size of baby: Poppy seed.

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Nothing yet although I did lose some weight in the last month or so. I need to figure out what weight to put down as my starting weight. I learned my lesson from last time and I guess it will end up being a few pounds heavier than my previous pre-pregnancy weight, unfortunately. Boo to that. I never did fully get down until the last week or so and I bet that's due to this pregnancy.

Maternity Clothes: Nope, in fact my regular clothes just started fitting a lot better.

Gender: Not yet. This time I think either one will be great. A girl would be different and we already have a name probably. A boy, it would be awesome for Neil to have a brother.

Movement: Not yet

Sleep: I haven't seen any effect yet.

What I miss: Nothing yet.

Cravings: Nothing yet.

Aversions: Nothing yet.

Symptoms:  This is part of the reason the positive test was a surprise. Compared to the other (3) times I got pregnant, I don't really have symptoms at all. I'm not overly tired. I'm not sore in not-to-be mentioned places (haha). I have gotten whiffs of an extra sense of smell but definitely not to the degree I have before.

Best moment this week: The positive pregnancy test

Looking forward to: Trying to actually enjoy this pregnancy more. Just because I've been through it once and I don't plan on more than 2 kids so I'm going to remember this is my last chance. I did not really enjoy being pregnant with Neil and I know there are a lot of blah things about pregnancy but I'm hoping I'll keep it in perspective.

Same this time: The excitement over the positive test. As well as the worries about miscarriages.

Different from last time: Fewer pregnancy symptoms so far.