10 weeks

Oh, the heat! I feel guilty whining about the heat because I have no stomach or anything but I'm usually always cold and this heat wave (off and on heat wave) has really been affecting me. And it seems like even though I'm drinking a LOT of water and gatorade, I'm getting dehydrated very easily. We had a concert at Kennywood on Saturday, and although it wasn't as hot as it was Friday or Sunday, I ended up feeling very sick. We went later than we normally would, since I couldn't ride anything, but ended up leaving right after the concert/packing the percussion equipment up. I also felt bad because I was avoiding carrying stuff, and people didn't know why. I don't know how much that was noticed. I would have tried harder if I wasn't feeling so bad!

Also, we heard the heartbeat through a doppler at my appointment! Yay! That is one huge milestone for me. And means we're one step closer to feeling ok with telling more close friends/family. The heartbeat measured over 170bpm.

I have to admit the appointment was very hard. And that, against the adamant advice of some friends, I bought a doppler for home. (The midwife center is ok with that and also said that if I want to come in and have them check for the heartbeat, they'll do that as well.) So Sunday a friend helped me find the heartbeat, which you would think would calm me down for the appointment Monday. Well, it did, until the I was sitting in the waiting room before my appointment. Then it felt like deja vu. In both previous pregnancies, the appointment is where we started finding out the bad news. Also, at the midwife center, they give you your entire chart and I was there pretty early so I was flipping through it and reading my ultrasound results from my previous pregnancies. BAD IDEA! And then it seemed like all the women waiting for appointments had their families there. One woman had her newborn and I just wanted to pick him up and hold him- his little feet and toes were just oh so adorable. Sitting there I started getting teary eyed, blinking back tears, trying to get my mind off it. By the time we went back for the appointment I was crying. I know it's stupid and at least partly hormone driven. For goodness sakes, I had just heard the heartbeat myself the day before! So yeah, I'm a bit embarrassed about that. But the appointment went well, we heard the heartbeat, everything is ok, and I actually made my next 3 appointments. Can you believe that?! I don't think I can! So happy!

How many weeks: 10

Size of baby: A prune and measures a little over an inch (2.5-3cm). Weighs about 1/4 of an ounce

Total Weight Gain/Loss:  Still holding steady, down 1.5 pounds 

Maternity Clothes: Nope. Still not even close. I've asked a few people and it sounds like it could be a little ways off before I will need maternity clothes. Although at my appointment she did say I was a bit bigger than how far along I am (yay for that actually) but that could be because of the previous pregnancies and already being partly stretched out. But any of that hardness is so low you can't see it.

Sleep: Yikes, sleep. I really don't know what's going on but I'm exhausted. Dave and I have gotten into a routine where we go to bed pretty early, I lean on him and sleep, and he watches a TV show. But then I wake up almost every night sometime between 3-4am and have a hard time falling back asleep. It's not being anxious (at least not consciously) but my stomach is all over the place. Sometimes I kind of doze off and on, but some nights I really don't sleep from then until the alarm goes off. I make sure I close my eyes at least and relax until I have to get up.

What I miss: Beer. Mmmmm beer. And margaritas.

Cravings: I like mashed potatoes a lot. I'm not sure I'd call it a craving though. And darn some of my friends, talking about donuts. Now I want one. But I don't think that's a craving either.

Aversions: Same old stuff. Beef, chicken, eggs- I'm not getting enough protein!

Symptoms: Tired, very emotional (poor Dave). My emotions are all over the place. I still get light headed easily but I'm making sure I take iron and stay hydrated.

Best moment this week: Hearing the heartbeat on the doppler!

Looking forward to: NT Scan on July 14th. It's more than one week away but I can't wait to see our baby again.